i need to change

im just sick of being tired,its so sad,i might lose all my friends if i dont change,and its so hard to change the person ive become really

when i entered university iwas depressed since i had spent a year at home,and then i found loving friends who do get annoyed by me at times, but its ok cus i have the tendency to annoy people. but one thing i wasnt aware of was my capability to break peoples trust , or being a hypocrite and crticise people. either i was like that already or ive become like this. but i dont like this new girl. and worst of all i m really clueless what will happen next. today i lost my best firend because i told something he told me about the guy i liked to my other firends,and now hes so pissed at me he wouldnt even talk to me, as compared to him talking to me all the time.

i need to straighten up,or i dont know what will happen further on. if someone could please tell me,wether its more important to have a few good friends,whore more like cheer leaders or have loads of normal friends but have none of them care about u, but when it comes to caring i know for sure only my parents care about me throughout the year, but of late i havent been nice to them either

i really do need to change.