love in circles

I was afraid this would be the day you stop loving me. I was afraid for the blow when you would say no Mo'. I begin to feel weak tossing and turning in my sleep mainly in dis belief. Begin to pray not asking why just making sure the devil no he's a lie. This is not his fight It seems like nothing goes right the sound you once loved you learned to have dispair. Sometimes I think you wish I wasn't here.
I was afraid this would be it's like my past won't let go of me. I feel the flame losing it's light,and we show that in our petty fights about who's wrong or right. I am willing but your feeling is not the same you tell me to trust you but truth is some day's I don't know you. You love me than hate me, and say you adore my esteem is falling like a glass to the floor. You just don't understand it's like my heart is in your hand.
I was a afraid of this tip toeing back around it's like everytime I give: love let's me no dont give in` there are no true friends no one will understand your knight and shinning armour that was just a childhood plan.
This is me enough broken pieces to build beautiful art,and deep inside is the treasure to a broken heart. I know feel the cold again my comfort is within. I say I am strong it's going to be hard but we'll go on.
I don't know if I became an enemy of myself .getting afraid and beginng to loose at anything within my reach the crazy things I do when I think someones down with me. Its like i loose my character see get caught up and forget about me. The principals I have the respect I gain the things that are worth dying in vain,LOVE..... is there an angle by my side blessed by Lord thy god keeping me right or is this how it should be? I was afraid........