The Doorway to the Soul

When I look at you, sometimes you catch me starring.
"It's not me," I whisper, "those eyes of yours are beautiful!"
I place my hand next to your face just to know you're here...
It's moments like this that make me wonder if it's really real.

You check the clock and have to leave.
I open my mouth to say "stay" or "don't go"
but all I see is the door shut as you take one last look back.
The time stands still and all I can do now is miss you.

I see a lot of people each day, but you're the only one who stays on my mind.
Any one I meet is instantly measured up to you.
"No, they don't laugh like you" and "No, they don't smell like you."
but really, it's your irreplaceable smile that keeps my heart warm.

It's the way you carry yourself when no one's looking.
The way you get your hair away from your eyes...
It could also be the way you pretend you are no better than anyone else,
But I know you are the only one who could ever mean something to me.

You listen to every word I say and pretend to care,
even when I know everyone else is bored with me.
I can't wait to hear the next thing you say...
Every sound you make is the sweetest sound to me.

I can't stop looking into your eyes because I never want you to leave.
I fear I'm not good enough for you and you can do better.
I want to be there to hold you and comfort you...
I just want to know you are safe and sound.

Although we get upset at each other from time to time...
I can't think of anyone I rather have be mine.
If roses are a shade of red, and violets are still blue...
I never stopped to notice because they can't compare to you.

This poem just went where I had wished it hadn't,
but the only thing I have left to say is "I love you."
With all the ways I can say I can never gather the courage,
You deserve better and I wish I could give it to you.

With these tears in my eyes, I won't say anything to you.
I don't want you to be with someone that holds you back.
All I want is for you to be happy, my happiness plays no part.
You are the one who deserves it, but I still want to know you are safe.

I will work towards being the man you deserve to have in your life.
I'll strive to show everyone that I am worthy of you...
Until that times, my words will stay hidden...
inside my heart and inside this book...