why did you leave us?

I was only 10 years old when I was laying on my door step
asking myself "why did he go?"
"Did he know?"
"How much we loved him?"
"Or how much we appreciated him"
Now smiling is only a sin
He was my moms true love
He was a father to me
but now hes up above
"You just had to go to that bar that night right step dad?
You had to drink and drive, and make everyone sad"
"but I didn’t leave you guys"
You say to us each night
Yes you did step dad, you chose to drink and drive
You chose to get that can of beer
Then get into that drivers seat
and start to steer.
You had to of ran that red light,
And cause everyone such a fright
Why did you do it step dad,
Now my mom is crying each night,
Looking at those pictures we took with that kite.
But, we cant fly that kite anymore
Cause it’s the kite that you made
And every time we look at it, our smiles start to fade.
Why oh why would you leave us step dad?
We both cry each night, in loving memories of you.
Thinking how much we loved you.
We still do, but why oh why would you do this to us?
We thought we could have trust,
Trust in you to always be there for us…
And to protect us
I just want to let you know that…
We still love you for ever and ever
And we will never forget you
Please look upon us each night step dad…
And we’ll pray to you with the love we still have
I’m still laying on our door step right now,
Crying aloud
this is where I saw you before you left us…
But that bar, what a bust
we can never drive down that street now
I still don’t know how
How would you want to leave us
You know how abusive my dad is…
You were pratically all I had
How am I suppose to go back to that
With out you protecting me from that abuser that’s always mad
That makes me really sad
Yes…
Im still laying here crying!!
Still thinking why you were lying
Were you planning on dying?
The way you lied to us and said you had a meeting to go to
Were you purposely leaving us?
You were such a good dad to me!!
Now maybe….
We can be together…
If I kill myself..