It used to matter

It Used to Matter
An original piece by Victoria

Underwater
Breathing is harder-
I didn’t notice before
In my dreaming
Constant Screaming
But what difference does it make?
Every morning I wake
Certain facts won’t change
Like the one where this goes on forever
You thrive, and I wither

It all used to matter to me
When breathing was everything
But breath’s something I can’t afford to waste
In words when no one’s listening
I remember when I used to be
So innocent, floating in a dream
Where you were the enemies
And I was still alive…

Solitude
In my room-
The only place I belong
My heart is frozen
With what’s unspoken
But what difference does it make?
Tomorrow I'll have to take
Another blow, but stay awake
And I'll be left bleeding with a smile
Still painted on my face

It all used to matter to me
When breathing was everything
But breath's something I can't afford to waste
In words when no one's listening
I remember when I used to be
So innocent, floating in a dream
Where you were the enemies
And I was still alive...

Closing my eyes to dissapear
I pray I'll fall away from here
But still I awaken and know the truth
You're still there...
Get away from me, I beg you
You know I don't want to hurt you
But as long as you stay with me you're
Always bleeding my sorrows
The ones that I can't feel.