Shimmering night sky

The night sky shimmers with tiny
White shimmering dots…
The cool breeze pushes water causing it to crash
Against the dark and hardened rocks.
I stand alone and look towards the black horizon and
See nothing.
I can feel the breeze; I can feel warmth as it brushes
Against my tear stained face.
I can hear the water playing in the distant night and
I wait;
The promise of the life that swims underneath.
I stand in wonder and in awe- in patience and yet in grief.
I know not why except the pain released flows into the
Sea that only knows how to play.
Released and gone, I sit on the sand and with an old,
broken sea shell; I trace the lines of a heart with wings
and write the names of past loves I knew but left behind.
Alone I sit by the sea. I light a fire. The wind grows cold as the night settles deeply.
I need to feel some warmth.
I sit by the fire and watch as the spark grows into a flame.
The colours change… And as I sit, I look above and watch the stars.
A shooting star goes by.  And another. Do I wish?
Is it but a child’s game once played but now forgotten.
Do I believe? Should I risk in holding a candle of hope
For a dream from so long, long, ago?
A dream only children have of honour, of love and truth
And simplicity of heart;
Of playing on the sand  and climbing trees, sharing ice cream
With your brother who promised to be with you forever
But no longer lives…not with me but with the stars up there…
So far away….away from me.
Another star falls…yes, I will wish for my dream;
I will believe in those things I left behind so long ago.
Alas, I fear no more -stars will come my way!
I doubted too long; I feared greatly!
I look down into the fire –it still burns.
Oh, how divine it is on this beach….
I close my eyes and breathe so deeply. I am one with the rippling waves carried into sea,
Into the dark abyss.
A sole dolphin comes to me and takes me for a ride…he plays with me in darkness but in love.
I hear his laughter…. I feels his skin…
I open my eyes. The fire burns. It’s getting late… I missed the shooting star!
But I feel content. Life as is sitting here by the fire
Alone is nothing and everything –I’m empty and full….
Wishes are for tomorrow and can be made today without a shooting star.
Living and loving is for the present.
I stand again and look out into the darkness.
The horizon unseen, I still feel the cool breeze –its warmth brushes my tear-stained
But content face. I hear the water playing still in the distant night.
My heart plays too…
It plays right now full of life and love;
This is not just the joy.
It’s the pain –it’s the battles lost and won
It’s me standing alone by the sea –breathing deeply –watching
Only the dark horizon not knowing where it leads but
Having faith that it leads to love and those we lost.