Season of hate

I look up.
The sunlight’s blinding.
This cell is where they bind me.
The drugs no longer take effect.
The grim reality is...
monotony’s the reason why I lost the will to live

I……’m neurotic
I…’m psychotic.
I……. want to blow it all away.
Please understand it’s not you
The one fucked up here is me.
My self perpetuating season of hate

Think I’m almost done here
Now let’s get this all clear
Don’t cry.
I wanted this, I’ll be alright
Just go on with your lives.
Now I’m shaking
These thoughts I harbor break me down
I want to blow it all away.

I……’m neurotic
I…’m psychotic.
I……. want to blow it all away.
Please understand it’s not you
The one fucked up here is me.
My self perpetuating season of hate

I…… self medicate and
I… push everything I love away
I….know I’m jaded and
I…..know I’m hated.
I’m sorry for what I’ve done,
but it's hard to feel anything when you’re wasted

I……’m neurotic
I…’m psychotic.
I……. want to blow it all away.
Please understand it’s not you
The one fucked up here is me.
My self perpetuating season of hate
>>>>>>>>>>>
Blow it all away.
Wipe that fucking smile off my face