I was jealous and angry, but mom, I loved you all the while |
At five, I thought you loved brother more than me I was jealous and angry, but mom, I loved you all the while You were sitting by my bed, not sleeping when I was ill, You were reading stories and playing with me when I was fine At ten, I thought you nagged me to study while you were having fun I was jealous and angry, but mom, I loved you all the while You were preparing my favorite dishes to make me eat You were guiding me in my studies among your busy schedule At fifteen, I thought I could never match your skills and beauty I was jealous and angry, but mom, I loved you all the while You were there always for me, being my best friend You were helping me through the tough times of growing up At twenty, I thought you did things your way, not taking me seriously I was jealous and angry, but mom, I loved you all the while You were arranging money for my college, through difficult times You were protecting me from bad company, with all your will At twenty five, I thought you liked spending time at your home than with me I was jealous and angry, but mom, I loved you all the while You were trying to teach me life, giving me a free hand at it You were giving me the space I needed to build a new family At thirty, I thought you did not care to be with us any more I was jealous and angry, but mom I loved you all the while You were trying to preserve my childhood writing down what you could remember You were trying to keep us happy not showing how tired you actually were At thirty five I think I will never be happy anymore loosing you to Alzheimer’s I am jealous and angry, but mom I love you more than ever You must be in heaven, if there is one, still glowing with your selfless love You must be the brightest star in the sky, guiding us all the way I love you, mom. |