to have loved or lost

im so tired of the way that you keep using me
taking my emotions and killing them abusing me
i tired so hard just to keep you satisfied
watching the lust for each man that seemed to pass us by
when you were with me i was never made the only man
yet i still treated you like no one man ever can
my gold my queen my california
i used to exclusivly adore you
but then you got bored of my constant love
developed crushes and strayed from what you knew was love
you left me no warning no explaination
blaming me for you not meeting my expectations
you told me it was my fault you ended it
when in reality your premiscuity was the end of this
so leave me now and let move on with life
dont wanna live holding in all of this strife
im done with you and all your slutty consequence
i hope in life you find in a man what lives within
and maybe ill drop by "hey how has it been?"
i gave it all my life my love my virginity
and when you look at him im betting that you still see me
but i dont care cause im done with your hellish game
tossing me in and out of love driving me insane
so walk on silly girl im not your toy anymore
im moving on leaving you and learning what im meant for
so sunshine turned to grey clouds and california gone
take your shit and get the fuck off of my god damn lawn!