Discours De L'Amour

Discours De L'Amour
(An Utterance and Confession of my Heart)

my thought overtaken ... engulfed by you,
my attention captivated in everything you say and do...
my bosom is soo heavy my stomach a swirling mass..
I am smitten overtaken whenever you walk past..
when i am in your presence, my pulse skips, my breath flees..
i can feel your essence.. your eyes pierce my will ... which begs ....and pleads.
i am sullen overtaken when we are apart..
when i gaze into your eyes i know you read my heart.
i beg and plead you feel the same.. this love i feel is there.
i pray that you would be for me.. my desire for all i care.
in the midst of chaos your smile it gives me peace.
in the midst of panic your soft voice gives me release.
my heart is all but broken i lay down in your sight.
i cannot bear this burden i have no will to fight.
i ask Him why it is so... this love i have for you..
All it does is grow and grow to profess otherwise would be untrue.
what can i do but bare this vain hope and mourn in my soul.?..
i treasure these fleeting moments in your gaze i am made whole...
and yet hope upon hope i will draw near to you..
your attention it pulls me closer... i am helpless and unglued...
sadness consumes me deep inside for you are my "friend"...
yet i still cannot quell this love this feeling that will not end...
how can I deny love to that which loves me to.?..
by action you show this true. In all you say and do.
i sometimes perceive when you think of me even when you are far away..
my heart in its longing to sit with you and keep you next to me
i am frayed beyond reason by this place and all that i pray..
i wake up every morning and think of you each and every day...
i am not sure what to do with this but i had to let it out..
my eyes they burn with tears at this moment in truth have no doubt..
my friend i am so in love with you... this i cannot deny..
i am so confused on what to do and do not wish to live a lie....

JL 6/31/09