emotions are such curse-ed things; how heavy mine have weighed... |
To calm the waters of my soul decisions must be made; I think I’m moving toward a place where viewpoints tend to fade. My God on High - I call to Thee; with all my might I pray to Thee. I beg my answers come from Thee - My God – I am afraid… Emotions are such curse-ed things; how heavy mine have weighed. I’ve turned to You so many times with feelings I’ve conveyed… I just can’t get beyond the hurt; I’m not so sure he means to hurt. He does not comprehend my hurt! My God – I am afraid… How lonely is this darkened space that does so now pervade; I must find answers clear enough - or end this sad charade… I can’t be placed where he now stands. I cease to know just how he stands himself to not be where You stand - My God – I am afraid… How does one stop what drives the soul? This game’s so long been played his way – the only way he knows; the way I’ve long surveyed. We’re lost within his new-found life. I don’t’ fit in to this new life; my soul lacks worth within his life. My God – I am afraid… I have no place that I can turn; save, You who are unswayed… I come to Thee in humbleness - So often have I prayed to You – Creator of the light; The One who shares a special light. Why does he not protect this light? My God - I am afraid. I’m useless from where I now sit; I feel I just invade. I’m not allowed to “interfere” within his masquerade. He makes me sit without a word as I ingest his every word - Why won’t he seek to find Your word? My God - I am afraid… There’s change within his mortal soul as spirit tends to fade to such low places in his life - so sadly now portrayed. He’s risking what he seeks to find; he needs to look to You to find - I’m not allowed to help him find. My God - I am afraid… So here I sit – alone and scared; forbad to dare invade the one that lies within my heart - the one I serenade. I shake my head at what to do; he does not see what he doth do. My God! Please tell me what to do! For I am so afraid… |