Commit

The hardest thing I've ever had to do was commit.
I've tried so many times before but my heart just wasn't in it.
I've been loved by many, only to love a few.
It seemed as thou braking hearts was all I ever wanted to do.
Till the day came when I realized I was alone.
I had everything, but my house wasnt a home.
There was no one to hold, no one to touch and no one love.
I evaluated my materials but they didnt measure up to much.
They couldnt love me, hold me, nor caress me with a simple touch.
So now I sit alone in silence contemplating different situations.
Wishing I can take back all my childishness and heart braking.
I never thought Id be alone like this.
Here there is nothing...
Only if I could just commit...