LIFE

I know not even though I try,
Words unsaid makes me wanna say goodbye,
Actions undone which I never took a stand,
Feelings not felt that just drift in the sand.

Life is not easy I need not to see,
Friends they come that brings me glee,
Afraid of loosing which is apart of me,
Always hoping to become what I want to be.

Questions that has always bothered me,
Why, how and when will it be?
Answers I have waited my whole life,
Wondering will it arrive like a snipe?

Hope has always been my friend,
For I know that it is there until my end,
Hoping to see that everything is alright,
For things may change for a night.

A night, a day or a year must i wait?
Cause change has always been late!
Time is not in my side,
For life I have set aside.

Fear has always made me scared,
Scared to know nobody cared,
Always afraid to be left alone,
Cause I know they are like stone.

Then one morning I woke up,
Drink a coffee in a cup,
I see myself as time goes by,
I cried cause they all said goodbye.

I asked my self why it happened to me?
Then i realize, it was because of me,
Because of the decisions i have made,
Or just they didn't wanna give me aid.

Help, I have always want them to give,
Yet, I can't say a word for them to believe,
Believe and to see that I'm in grieve,
For i only cry when they leave.

Confused you may say I am,
But hurt I really am,
Can't say the words I want to say,
Feelings that I just hide in a way.

When will this end? I said to myself,
No it will never end, I answered myself,
It's a part of life that everyone must endure,
But sometimes it acts like a cure.

A cure to those who don't understand,
The way of life that everyone must stand,
For them to know what is right,
To find the truth that lies in sight.

Now I know I have to change,
And give myself a change to rearrange,
A chance to change my life before I die,
To live my life in truth not in a lie.

Asking I should have not,
Living I should have never forgot,
For in life you will know,
A love that will hit you like a bow.

Let things come as they should be,
For in time you'll know the reason of thee,
Change is good for you, you'll see!
A friend to help you become what you want to be?

Forgiveness I must asked,
To God and friends I have locked,
Locked in a place hidden inside me,
Locked in the good side of me.

Fear I should have forgot,
Because if caused me a lot,
From GOD, family and a friend,
To my life long end..

So i say these words to you,
Live, love and show the real you,
For no one can say who you are,
So show them how great you really are.........