two loves

i might of loved before.
damn yeah its real
that i can guarantee.
what do you mean to me?

who was the first?
i gave my heart away at six
and still haven't gotten back
that i don't regret
the pain is over now.
you taught me to see.
to think for myself
to try and learn an ollie
yeah that didn't work to well.
that jumped out of windows
and was always the monkey
of the group for where we climbed.
you taught me love or i fell for you
all upon my own. no, nothing happened.
but i know it was true.
i'd always wanted to marry you.
then the day came when you asked her
to spend some days with you.
now you're in love and i'm alright.
i'm just glad you're happy.
i got over the pain days before.

but now who is this new?
the kid whos always at my house?
who always gets me laughing?
who taught me how to throw a frisbee?
who i'm with every weekend?
that can give me a heart attack?
i have no idea in sight
where all the passion you make me have
comes from other than the heart.
i don't want this to be another him.
i can't go through that again
but i'm willing too.
which is so very stange.
i hate that drowning pain.
but i will take it all if i need too.
no i don't dare dream
i don't want to be let down
when i falll for the one who doesn't see
me in any light other than aquaintance,
maybe if we stretch that friend.
i fear that i love you..
or am in the midst of falling
oh who am i kidding?
i past falling a few months ago.
still you don't know.
for i'm too afraid to show.
it sends my heart on a rollercoaster.
i think i'm going beyond comprehence.
but i know i'm in love.
please just don't let me down
the day you find out.


both of them my brothers best friend
one here in florida
the other there in georgia
god why did you give my brother two best friends?