Tormented and Torn

There is a curse upon my forgiveness
There is a shadow upon my trust
There is unconditionally a flavor in me
that savors an innocent lust

There lies a beast without fever
There lies a famine denied
There lies a noxious energy
that threatens to fester inside

There stirs a memory of love
There stirs ambivolent need
There stirs all pathetic reaches of life
That sates its acception with greed

Once laughed at me my choices
Once cried to me my fate
Once dawn has risen, dusk has fallen
I tolled the bell too late

My bank though short of pennies
suffered not a cost
for all the riches life can hold
mocked me with its loss

I'm doomed to life of solecism
Loneliness...contrite
Blinded by an insecure
deceptive wrong or right

I left you with conviction
I left you all alone
I left you with sweet liberty
Oh, I wish I could've known

What a dear gift I gave you
that I'd at once abide
Was a present of luscious presence
that you'll cloy deep inside

You'll remain worthy of your trophy
of pressed your ribbon blue
And I'll remain...with heart of pain
For, I gave my love to you!