My Baby

My Baby

I loved you while unseen
I named you
not knowing boy or girl
knitted and crocheted for you
you left me painfully
without a kiss or hug goodbye
where did you go?
tried to hold on
tried to keep you
things beyond my control took you away
the father was not happy
he was not Desi singing with joy
you did not stay
he did not cry
showed no woe
said it was done
now say no more
I still mourn
remember your departure
gave you a birthdate
I know your age
this moth would've been
number thirty five