Subtle lonelyness

10/30/2009

Subtle lonelyness


I'm so afraid
to wake up and find
that no one is there
that no one will ever be there again
i'm so afraid

When I blink my eyes and look off in the distance
I'd want to see another pair of eyes instead
the scenery doesn't take away the lonelyness
the sky and birds don't give me love
the ocean and sea creatures don't give me pleasure
the sand underneath my feet doesn't give me warmth

I'm looking to another day
day after day
I keep searching for something
and its funny
because i don't know what i'm searcing for
Why do i search then?

I cry sometimes
when i'm alone...or when I feel alone
I feel deep sadness and pain inside me
not from a physical pain
but from being lonely
I feel like no one understands me
and no one truly likes me

When am I truly happy?
That is a good question
I guess I'll find out some day...