A boy and a promise

its 145am
though i was yawning like a hippo
i just couldnt sleep

its been more than 3 days that we had a good 3 hours sleep
its been an hour o none sometime
and now i know how sleep deprivation is

i was practically fell a sleep while talking in few occassion
once i was talking and talking and talking
and suddenly i just shut down
i was seated
my eyes just shut down and my head bowed
then instantly i woke up
and realise people were looking at me
waiting for me to finish my sentences :)

but its not easy to sleep here
u didnt feel the time
busy with meetings and writing reports
but actually its the atmosphere and the surrounding
people seem not to sleep till its about 4 or near 5 am
maybe its jittery
maybe its anxiousness
or purely fear
who wouldnt, rite...

but maybe i cant sleep today is because whats happening in the day

we were snailing along the ridges in our innova,
this is where padang alai sits
it was precarious
there were many landslides
literally the whole village was flattened
most of its roof sits majestically on the ground
with no walls as its companion

all under one roof

there were many children begging for a thousand or two rupiah
we came to this area
i was busy clicking away
and the car stopped infront of this boy

he thrust his donation box to me
pak tolong pak
i jestly told him
you smile let me take your picture
if i can sell your pic and make money
i will give it to you
immediately he smiled and me clicking a shot of him

i was joking with towkay dedy in the car
how i managed to make the boy smile
and yes,making money out of his photo
but somehow something tells me
i have played with his emotion
he trusted me
and i jolly well keep to my promise

i was jolted by it
i said to him halfheartedly
making a joke of my remarks
but to this boy
i could be his life savior and family too
i gave him hope
and my promises put a smile on his sad life story

and may curse myself for putting this unwittingly
so please if you like the smile on his face
and believe theres hope like he did
please contribute generously
i will be going back to Padang in a few days time
and i hope to bring him something back
a promise is a promise

any sacrifices are welcome

maybe in his world
promises are as smelly as shit
but for once
lets prove him wrong
thanks for reading

ps- tis note was posted in my fb (mojojo68@hotmailcom).you can see his smiling face.i posted his pics.this is not a donation drive and i have fulfilled my vow to him :)