You've Disappeared

You are gone, done with me,
You've disappeared, that is clear to me,
I stand alone, as I usually have,
I feel only empty, not the least bit sad,
I am again, surrounded by nothing,
With no chance, of you returning,
Lies bound us together,
Lies tore us under,
I remain the constant, while you change with the season,
What I found is now missing again,
A heart, lifeless without a home,
A certain limbo, that is only known,
I dare not utter your name,
For I only associated it with shame,
You've made me this vile, I am disgusted even with me,
With the things I've said, with the things I refuse to see,
I was foolish, not realizing you were a child,
Immature and tainted, are words that are only mild,
Even if you swallowed your pride,
The memories are hard to hide,
Memories that can be forgotten,
That only prove we were rotten,
I could give more chances, that you'd never take,
Or I could stop this fracture before the break,
However, this matter isn't up to me,
For it is you who have disappeared from yourself, unable to see,
You are left to search aimlessly,
And you will fail completely.