Sorries

When will this pain subside?
Every day it seems like I die
Lost in unhappiness
The burning emotion of anger fills the cold pit of my heart
Will it ever be the same?
Mindless delusion to calm the nerves
Last puff of a nasty habit
Release of love to the strength of hate
Why did it happen this way?
Forever should have lasted
Given up to the alternative
It's scarce to find that always
It's not all about the sorries