YOU ARE NOT ALONE

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

How long do I have to live in fear for?,
Brainwashed into believing that it was my fault
My fault why he hits me,
and that he lied so much to himself, his friends and family that he’d never lay a finger on me,
he believed it himself.

How long to I have to look over my shoulder for?
How long do I have to watch where I go, who I talk to, what time I get in?
How long do I have to walk with my head bowed, frightened to raise my head, to face the world, to face those eyes which know what going on in your little world,
everyone knows its your fault,
he loves me,
he takes care of me,
he doesn’t mean to do it, its my fault - so he says,
it must be, I make him do it,
look what I made him do
that’s what he tells me,
and you believe him, he’d never lye to me,
I must be the one in the wrong,
those big strong arms wrapped round me,
keeping me safe from the dark,
I know he gets angry sometimes,
he had a bad and unhappy upbringing
he’ll change - one day
he’ll stop - one day
I’ll change him,
Wait and see,
I’ll change him back to the man he used to be.

He destroyed my life, my confidence, my happiness,
What happiness?,
Is it when he say’s he loves me?,
It must be,

None of my friends know the truth about me,
block it out,
its the way to be
they’ll laugh and they’ll talk
and say I deserve it,
but what do they know,
I thought he was worth it.

He’s turned me against them, my parents and all,
oh God you fool,
I was going to leave them,
drop them and go back
back to a place where nobody knows
black eyes one day,
bruises the next,
only God knows what he would do next

Get out now a little voice tells me,
one day I might listen,
stop running from the wind,
turn and face it
look at yourself,
that sad and lonely person,
you can’t hide behind smiles,
false smiles, that’s what they are,
just take one look in your eyes,
the truth is in your eyes.

How many times does it take you,
to find out who he is,
his not a sweet and innocent man,
his a jekle in disguise,
he’s a jekle in my eyes


Now is time to stand up and face it,
be strong, be truthful, be you,

Remember that girl a long time ago,
so young, so bright, so happy,
I thought I saw her just the other day,
She smiled and went on her way,
I remember that smile, that look in her eyes
Warm, bright and guiding
like a way into the tunnel,
the tunnel’s opened, she’d showed me the way
the light so bright, so warm, so caring,
for now, I was happy
for now, I remember
for that girl,
that girl was me.

Written by Carey-Ann Steel