Written long ago by a disillusioned girl. |
I have written such before, now I begin anew what exactly do you think is society’s glue? Violence, some say, or fear of unknowns perhaps we just don’t want to be alone flocking instinctively, a bunch of sheep or is it something more meaningful, deep? with all the hatred we show each other why do we still flock together? we could just leave, live separately segregate ourselves and our families maybe then all this killing would end shooting and stabbing and maiming our 'friends' although I admit, its sure fun to see a person hit with a chainsaw, cut off at the knee someone shot with a crossbow, right in the eye set right on fire, smoke fills the sky hit by a car, shot with a gun it all just seems like so much fun as long as it doesn’t happen to you this world can continue to be a damn zoo kinda gives us something to watch something to do besides grabbing our crotch hey, it’s just TV, we got nothing to lose neighborhood goes bad? Just pick up n move. don’t fix anything or stop all the crime that wouldn’t be a good use of time you might miss your favorite show on TV living through others, vicariously why try to make the world someplace new? when the world is so busy pandering to you we love all this violence, this hurting and pain that’s why we want it never to change! why we live together in the cities we hate why we have murder and bigotry and rape what would you read in your daily paper if that nine year old girl had no one to take her? If she was safely at home, getting ready for her day and nobody kidnapped her and took her away? What would you watch on your zombie box if we didn’t have channels with violence like fox? If we had no pedophiles, nobody to hate? would you ever bother to stay up late?? You watch the news and buy into this shit look! An innocent exploded in a botched mob hit! how exciting, how tragic, how morbidly fun whenever you tune in the corporations have won I don’t watch TV, nor hear the radio if someone starts to gossip I get up and go I don’t need to hear about the baby starved at home her mother wouldn’t feed her and nobody had known too busy buying herself clothes they say to give her daughter food each day she was only two, and isn’t this great nobody cared until it was too late she was two months gone before relatives knew how long would it have been if the relative were you? When’s the last time you called family? When’s the last time it was for them and not "me"? Has a newspaper article ever made you cry? Did that baby dying bring a tear to your eye? Did it even make you sad? Or are you now just starting to feel bad? Think about this next time you’re watching what if it’s you hit while road-crossing? Would you be ok if all near just stared? Nobody helped you while you bled there? Nobody thought to call the police they just sat there and watched, a morbid eyes feast? How would you feel if someone stabbed you and all over the news your face was issued for the entire world to judge and to see not feeling a thing, no hint of mercy? How do you feel when you see the homeless? Do you know how close they are to losing their wits? Nobody helps them, but they aren’t all bad you never know what troubles they had you judge them so quickly because of a few what would you think if the homeless were you? If you got laid off and had nowhere to go were forced by the fates to live in the snow? To ask people, strangers, for change, or just steal to live in a dumpster, and scrounge for each meal? To worry each day where you'd go for the night? to be on your own and be forced to fight the system and stereotypes for all that you need to have nowhere to go when your fingers bleed in below freezing weather your skin simply cracks and its hard to find shelter, cops follow your tracks you hide in a hallway just to be warm because outside there’s a blistering storm a stranger happens by, finds you harming nothing but they scream and holler, till your ears ring then you gotta leave, and go brave the storm find some other unsafe, temporary home are you beginning to put yourself in their shoes? Or are you still sitting there watching the news? And what about the kid who joins in a gang? Forget about him, him we should hang! he didn’t have a fucked up life feeling no hope in this constant strife joining a bunch of assholes he probably never wanted just so he'd avoid getting beat up and taunted maybe he joined so he wouldn’t feel so alone families these days don’t make you feel at home what if you were him, having to kill to be cool? To rape a girl you liked behind the middle school? And if you told your boys to go to hell they'd shoot you in the chest and laugh as you fell. nobody tells you joining up is for life you do as they do of you end up knifed you see it happen to someone else each day and after awhile all you want is away but you can't, so now you’re in this gang for good never gonna get your ass out of the hood. please people for the love of god get your head out of your ass or I swear to god I’m going to come around and shoot up your class cuz I’m that freak Goth kid at school who everyone thinks that they have fooled till one day I can take no more and fill the hallways up with gore because nobody will understand that I just need a helping hand constantly picked on, everyone’s cruel so damn sick of going to school but forced to anyways, and nothings ok until I let the bullets spray that will make it all seem fine making the world population decline picture the wife all alone, beaten by her man she knew what would happen when he asked for her hand she could just leave, couldn’t she? nobody would stop her except you don’t know all the facts, he would fucking drop her she'll never ever get away, not while they both live every day he beats her bloody no matter what she did she didn’t cook dinner because she's bedridden with the flu? Well daddy’s got a pleasant little surprise for you! How about he holds a hot iron to your spine? Next time, bitch, make sure dinner's on time! Couldn’t do the dishes cuz he fuckin broke your arm? He brings you flowers helps you out and lays on the charm. but it’s been years of the same old thing and you see through his shit it’ll only be a day till again you get hit... now put yourself in her shoes, what the fuck would you do? Kill that mother fucker or continue to be abused? cuz anyone who’s been there already understands so it turns out that you realize its either you or him and you stab him in the night before the screaming starts again. all these thing have happened every single day all over our country in many different ways and you just sit there safely inside your happy home waiting in your living room for the daily news to come sitting there unaffected by all you see and read... well I say fuck this bullshit, this shit isn’t for me I refuse to read a paper or watch the news at five fuck all of this useless shit killing off our minds people are getting hardened against such horrible acts everybody accepting violence and coldness as just the facts well I refuse to be a part of such universal uncaring ill get off my ass and live, now isn’t that just daring? My life might be boring, repetitive and slow but at least I have some substance, and still have room to grow. I give a damn about the homeless I was sad for the girl I cried for the baby and wanted to hurl I care about the gang kid and I care for the wife it's depressing that they will never have a life I hate this fucking violence I hate the fucking world I hate not being able to change it because I am just one girl. No matter what everyone says one person can't end this taint mother Theresa lived and died, and she is now a saint... but the world continues to get worse and worse no matter what she did or said because us humans are a fucking curse and never use our fucking heads. nothing is getting better, things just spiral down we see nature changing, and she’s wearing a frown she'll kill us off with weather, brought to its extremes wipe us off the planet, and make everything clean she's tired of these humans and their selfish, stupid ways and soon enough my fellows, we'll see the end of days... |