A Lost Soul, Swallowed Darkness

For so long.. For what has seemed like ages now..

My sorrow has been locked away...

Yet.. In its absence..

Building to comprehensive fathoms



Now the pressure is awesome in strength..

Breaking down the defenses which took years of mental strife..

And doing so.. in mere moments when in comparison.

How it somehow broke my defenses.

Without my notice 'till it was too late..



My eyes are heavy..

My body equivalent to tonnes..

The surges.. Endless surges blast from the labyrinth,

of my subconscious and seems to decimate my heart..

my souls last defense.

And even then..

My soul is sorrowful.



The heart so fragile and weak..

Yet.. It continues supporting both conscious and subconscious,

which held, holds, and cursed to hold.

This massive weight equivalent to many worlds..

Yet.. Very invisible behind the facade..

Of the bearer.

How this lost soul wishes to please its savior.. and its guardian..

Shame. Regret. Sorrow. Hate. Fear. Loneliness.

Alone, these can prove to be fatal.

Together is mere torture to last the ages.



"I wish! I wish to show my pain,

Which is more felt and real then the life I live!

Yet.. To be held back by a logic,

wishing to never share the weight it bares on its shoulders.."

A soul... Yearning to be alone,

To dwell in its earned blackness..

To have this as its own nightmarish hell.

So twisted, is this rotted fate..

Ruled by lust, sloth, envy, and pride.

To want nothing..

To need nothing..

but to seek everything.





A soul with angelic Potential..

Its wings seemingly clipped by fate dealt by it.

Excruciatingly slow does the end cometh..

To yearn it but upon its arrival wouldnt be prepared.



"What is my purpose?

What use am I?

To deserve so little yet given so much?

Does one enjoy it?

Or loathe it?

An Angels tool..

To share its past and to share my deeds..

Purposeful. Yet completely lost."



Once considered 'The Angel of the Damned and Forgotten'..

Now just a lonely, empty, insignificant remnant of lost efforts.



To view a lie and a truth in the same light.. What does it see..?