Painful time

Heart breaking with every heartbeat.
Not sure of what to do
Calling out for help!
Can nobody hear my plead.
Rising up just to get knocked down.
Answer my call I'm begging you.
Tell me how to understand this.
Opening up to get shut down.
Cripping into my soul at night,
Why am I feeling so down about what I said?
In time I'll die.
Without any doubts.
I'll come clean and tell you everything.
Hope and depression bottled up inside.
Exploding in time...