Until I Find Myself

Until I Found Myself

For years I walked in darkness
never knowing who I was,
I was afraid to give my heart away,
yet so badly needing love.
From the moment I first met you,
something stirred deep down inside
it was a longing I’d not felt before,
I could not hide it if I tried.
I had so many secrets,
so much shame and guilt and doubt,
I never thought you’d want me
if my secrets were let out....
So for many years I hid them,
my pain I would not show,
I hid it any way I could
my truth would not be known.
But you my love were different
like no one I had known
you made me feel so special
instead of lost and all alone.
I wish now I could have told you
much sooner than I did, for those secrets,
lies, and shameful things,
kept the real Deb so hid.
Today my wounds are healing
I’ve come so very far
I never would have made it
if not for the person you are.
When you met me I was broken,
I thought beyond repair
your love and understanding
helped me look into that mirror.
I had to walk away from you,
put your love upon a shelf,
and there it sits so patiently
until I find myself.