I'm Tired

I'm tired of ignorance
and not the kind that is stupid
the kind that refuses to see
the kind that looks the other way
without realizing the damage
that is inflicted by this action
the kind that shows no sympathy
no empathy for others
the ignorance that burns down our homes
the ignorance that turns those against us
ignorance that shows no love
and shows the true self that the self cannot see

I'm tired of hardships.
Not the kind that is money.
The kind that destroys us
that turns our lives into black tar pits
swirling and bubbling, swallowing our souls
into deep, suffocating blackness
The kind that takes away love, replaces it with hate
The kind that shows no mercy on the innocent
that sit patiently waiting for the bad
to somehow turn good again.

I'm tired of hatred.
The kind that is blind to reason
that hates on everything that it does not understand
hatred that eats us whole and spits us out
in to wadded up pieces, soaking and sobbing
on the floors beneath our feet.
the hatred that destroys lives and loves,
that ruins the homes we build
the hatred that is built on weak foundations
yet somehow grows strong and pummels the weak.
the hate that hates itself, because it knows nothing else.

I am tired of the sickness that eats our lovers
our friends and families alive.
the sickness that strikes with no warning and boils
like grease burning the flesh and bubbling up into boils filled with puss and infection.
the sickness that claims the innocent souls and lives
of those that have not yet lived.
Not the sickness of the minds,
the sickness of the body that kills and destroys
all that it touches.

I am tired of the unexplained
that we are told to understand, but shows no understanding.
that has no logical manifestation, it just festers
and builds and changes with the sicknesses and hardships
the hatred that builds the unexplained, the ignorance that supports it.
I am tired of the blackness that eats away at our hearts with no mercy, yet is filled with so much
strength that we cannot fight.

I am just tired.