Forever Regrets

Beginnings only stutter,
My forever regrets,

Fire burning without fuel,
Never had I fed,
This is my forever regret

Hush now inside,
Don’t make my child cry,
Couldn’t begin to begin to say hi,
In my forever regret,

Knowing was the worst part,
Still no amount of years can erase that,
Like lines on a page etched into the soul,
Those lines can read;
I’ll Forever Regret

This pain I feel,
Deep within my meaning,
Haunting me like the very cowards that I are,
For my mortal race,
Shall become part of me,
My immortal Forever Regrets

What I did when we didn’t,
Knowing was everything,
Lift ourselves to the occasion,
I just simply couldn’t,
I now know that in future,
I’ll know even my past,
Have forever regrets.

What I didn’t whenever I could,
Disappointment all around,
Shared remorse for the mute,
Taking the initiative,
Harder to do then say,
Never will I know now,
What I missed,
They are my forever regrets.

Could I say what we couldn’t?
Taking life into hands,
Faithfull leap,
Joy to who’s world?
Always uncertain about why,
When I know we never will
But ever still we may hold,
Till runs dry with feathered mold,
Collective forever regrets.

But I never say die until die says you,
It acts upon me,
In our behalf and ethic,
Turning point in life never was lit,
Graffiti in my hearts,
Whenever I should have done what I haven’t,
I know that darkness ensues,
Only to light up a darker path,
Leading me to only one thing,
Being forever regretful

I ask only for remorse,
But lies split lies,
Never could I turn back now,
But never could I charge,
Only ourselves can we blame,
For the hunt for such fair game,
Lead us men to our undoing,
One by one we fall heavily,
Encumbered by our lusty love,
Only the truth could set us apart,
Burdened by forever regret

Such old feelings,
Those never ran tired,
Yet we can’t begin to fathom,
Old never felt so young,
Whinny little things are these,
Which we have yet to control,
For newborn are the old,
Reeling under such hard scrutiny,
How can I hope to pass?
Still I chance this test,
Even though I can only confirm it,
I will forever regret

In the waking of the wake,
Experiences the thinnest of wisps,
Only to be shunned into shadows,
Willing am I,
Able am I,
I will try,
But never again will it satisfy,
Know not what you knew before,
I see you knock at the closed door,
Wishful and patient am I,
For like so much else,
I and I will wait,
Forever regretting

Forever endeavor I will never,
Reaching into the dark,
I could only be reprimanded,
This I know all too well,
Yet still we grope in shadows,
Hope for the best,
Know for the worst,
Like fishing in for whale,
None of our rods can manage this task,
For I have no bait,
Maybe it’s just the linger in my gait,
Yet I do catch one thing,
Forever Regrets

Memories of mine,
Oh so bitter lacking its sweet,
Set up into a court,
My fate to be determined by my fill,
Like the courts of prejudice looked upon ancestors,
They look upon me now,
Not a caring eye in the mirror,
But what is what isn’t,
Must be withheld within,
But confined so to never be dismissed,
Dismayed conventional love,
Took me by my arm and flew me away,
Now all that’s left of me,
Is my forever regrets

Will I be shot down?
I can only wonder while I fly,
Never before yet so high,
But after the faithful climax,
Fully aware of consequences,
Yet I still ignore them,
The pilot had left me,
And can one really fly their own plane?
Wishes had what wishes would,
But never could they really could,
This might kill me you know,
And I will probably break,
But until then I can only shake,
I anticipated my anticipation but never expected it,
Only my forever regrets

The last act,
Of our last play,
Could it,
Can it,
Will it,
Go my way?
Just for once do I wish I had my wish!
But I know even through controversial paranoia
I can see the dark,
Our future never meant anything,
And why should it?
I was never much into goodbyes,
But even as I say one,
You know naught,
And even in your ignorance you left me torn,
Spewing my forever regrets