If I'd Have Time To Tell You

GRANDPARENTS-

I KNOW THAT WE CANNOT FIND ENOUGH TIME TO HANG OUT AND PLAY OUR GAMES. WE SIT IN SOLITARY NOT KNOWING WHAT THE OTHERS DOING. I NEED AND KNOW THAT I NEED TO TAKE MY TIME AND SPEND IT WITH YOU. YOU HAVE OUT-LIVED GRANDMA BOUDWINE BUT BY HOW MUCH. YOU HAVE REACHED YOUR 70’S WHEN GRANDMA BOUDWINE ONLY RECEIVED 64 YEARS. I HAVE TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU BEFORE THE WORST SHALL HAPPEN. MY MIND DULLS WHEN I HEAR YOUR NAME, BEING TOLD THE TALL TALES OF THE PAST, AND TRYING TO REMEMBER YOUR FACE IS NEAR IMPOSSIBLE.

I KNOW THAT I SHOULD NOT BE THINKING ABOUT THIS BUT I CANNOT HELP THAT- THE DEATH OF BOUDWINE GRANDMA HAS TAKEN ITS TOLL. THE ONLY PROBLEM ABOUT THAT IS, BOUDWINE GRANDMA WAS NEVER CLOSE (FRIENDLY TALKING, SPENDING TIME WITH EACH OTHER AND EVERYTHING ELSE). THE ONLY TIME WE SAW EACH OTHER WHEN SOMEONE HAD A BIRTHDAY OR CHRISTMAS ROLLED AROUND- THE ONLY TIME! I WANT US TO BE DIFFERENT IN OUR RELATIONSHIP.

THIS HAS CROSSED OUR MINDS AND FRANKLY WE CANNOT GET IT OUT. WE FEEL THAT IT IS A BUMMER NOT TO BE GOING TO FLORIDA FOR YOUR 50TH ANNIVERSARY, HAVING MORE SLEEPOVERS, AND MORE BIKE PATHS TO EXPLORE. MY SCHOOL WORK AND DAY REFLECT MY THOUGHTS AND LATELY I HAVE BEEN STARING IN THE DISTANCE WONDERING AND HOPING NOTHING HAPPENED TO YOU. YOUR FAVORITE COLOR, TRAIL, PLACE TO BE, AND THE WORKS- I KNOW NOTHING!

I FIND THAT THERE IS NOTHING WORTH LIVING FOR EXCEPT FAMILY. FAMILY SHOULD STICK TOGETHER THROUGH THICK AND THIN- DARKNESS AND LIGHTNESS- SMOG AND BOG- TIL DEATH DO US PART. HOWEVER, THE ONLY FLAW WITH THIS IS THAT THERE IS AN END. I CAN NOT IMAGINE WHAT LIFE IS LIKE WITHOUT YOU. WAITING FOR YOU TO PULL UP IN THE WHITE FORD VAN, FUMBLE OUT IN YOUR OLD-FASHIONED CLOTHES, HAIR PINNED BACK, AND SMILES FILLING YOUR FACE.

YOU NEED TO BE THERE. TO SEE ME GRADUATE, MY LIFE, OCCUPATION, GROWING FAMILY, AND ME RETIRING. I KNOW THAT IN THE END YOU WILL NOT BE THERE ON MY CELEBRATE RETIREMENT, BUT I AM A WOMAN THAT CAN DREAM. I DREAM THAT YOU WILL BE THERE FOREVER- IN SCHOOL, MY DREAMS, MY REALITY.

PLEASE STAY WITH ME TO THE END- THEN LET US CHARGE THE SUN WITH FULL FORCE. WE CAN APPROACH LIFE TOGETHER- BUT WHEN YOU LEAVE ME I WANT YOU TO KNOW SOMETHING….. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND YOU COULD DO NOTHING TO CHANGE THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT YOU. YOUR LOVE CANNOT TEAR US APPART, DO THE MATH- WE ARE STUCK TOGETHER LIKE PEANUT BUTTER ATTACHED TO WONDER BREAD.

I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL
WITH LOVE AND PRAYERS,





AMY