Emotional Roller Coaster

I jump onto the emotional roller coaster once again,
and its only because I was betrayed by my best friend.
Though I was getting sick from riding it over and over again,
I have to admit that I am glad to be pushed on even without it being meant.

I damn them all,
when I fall,
but yet I still manage to forgive them when it's all said and done.
Why I keep hurting myself over them is still unknown to me,
but still everytime I go to leave I turn around and let all stress free.

I drift into the place of no memory where I feel numb,
and then they hurt me again until I'm forced to feel the pain as it comes.
I ask myself over and over if I just enjoy this suffering,
and everytime I ask the answer always seems to come out as a yes.
I can't exactly explain why,
but somehow I always want to just have a nice long time to cry.

So into my world of hatred I fall,
but still through it all,
I come out
without even a shadow of doubt
that if I need my friends,
they will be with me till the end,
or at least until I finally mend again.