Dear God

I'm looking for some type of blessing,
Dear God, please send me some kind of sign,
To lead me in the better direction,
and leave all this torture behind.

I'm stuck with this deadly disorder.
I have lost all means of control.
You're the only one now who can save me,
who can pull me up out of this whole.

I want this more than any other thing,
But i'm afraid I can't accomplish it alone.
It's going to take more than I have in me to give,
To undo all the damage I've done.

This illness has a tight grip on my soul,
Lost and trapped within it's hold.
Dragging me to a point of no return,
A place so bitter and so cold.

What was I thinking when I created this habit?
I hadn't considered the price that I'd pay.
Now, I'm aware of the suffering it brings,
I neither want to live nor die this way.

There's no way I can fight this forever,
I don't want to hide this secret anymore.
My life is more than some predictable play,
I can't let death be the final encore.

All I ask is that you teach me to be normal,
A cure is all i'm searching to find.
Dear God, please consider my prayers,
Just send me some kind of a sign.

-JLBarrow-