Lying Here Awake

Its 1:00 am and I’m  still awake.
Thinking about everything and hearing my heart break.
You lying there asleep dreaming away.
I sit here and ponder  of how I’ll make it through the day.
Everything I’ve done and everything I am, I’ve done with a purpose.
So everything you see now,  has been  brought to the surface.
There are things unsaid, that are locked up inside.
Like a book of stories with no place to hide.
I try to tell you everything but I just come up speechless.
Its so hard to talk to you with your mind so aimless.
I try to let it out, but every time I open my mouth it just makes it worse.
And all I feel is trapped inside with this burden or curse.
Everything is bottled up inside with no way out.
All I do is play this movie in my head feeling all the pain and the doubt.
I always had faith in you and all you gave me was disappointment.
And even though you have done me wrong I still live for the moment.
You became selfish I have not.
I will not give up and I will not be bought.
I may have lost faith in you but I have not lost faith in others.
I am kinder and sweeter and will always love my sisters and brothers.
Its 1:15 am and I’m still awake.
While your lying there asleep I hope you hear my heart break.