The Minds Betrayal

The Minds Betrayal

How can a rational mind be so blind and create irrational thoughts
Why would it cause us to do things that work against the battle we fought
Then it leaves you all alone with a mountain of shame and guilt
How do we overcome this broken mind so a life of happiness can still be built

I can hear the words of reason, spoken loud and clear
But it's like a demon sits on my shoulder whispering in my ear
Unraveling all my senses, causing doubt in every thought
A battle completely different than any one I've ever fought

I feel if I make one wrong move, I will be abandoned and all alone
So I throw up all my defenses, these impenetrable walls of stone
I can not let them see me, for they will see the darkness inside
I can not let them see me, it is my shame I need to hide

I brought this upon myself, these feelings I can not share
I must fight this on my own, it is my burden alone to bare
I can see the light in the darkness, it's right before my eyes
But the door is steadily swinging shut, I feel the despair uprise

I can't do this on my own, I see her walking out the door
I must try everything to overcome this, regardless if I loose even more
I will put it all on the line even though fear pierces me like a lance
For I would give up everything, if just for one more chance

~ J.A. Viz