Bittersweet

Bittersweet



Abandonment -- that's my fear.
Ever since that boy.. the first one I loved.
Yes, I believe that's when it started.

Heartache -- I've felt it many times before.
But never so strong.
When my fear is at its worst, I am like this.

Jealousy -- yes. I'm jealous.
But not because you're with another girl.
It's because it feels like she's stealing you away.

Heartbreak -- another thing I've felt many times before.
But it's never pierced my insides so much.
And I'm afraid I'll start piercing the outside.

Paperclips -- my choice of weapon.
Other than the words I throw at myself, of course.
And the memories I force myself to agonize over.

Memories -- so precious, beautiful.
But when people leave me, they turn into something scary.
Can't lose my memories, don't want to.
But can't remember, it hurts too much.

Soulmates -- that's what I believe we are.
Because we have the truest love of all.
But do you feel that way too?

Hopeless -- I feel so lost right now.
Lost everyone, myself too.
Save me.

Love -- bittersweet, so bittersweet.
Sweet in its bloom, and bitter in it's cling.
If I let go of you I'd die.

Numb. That's how I feel right now.
Come back to me.
Make me whole again.