hope less

feel like i am going crazy inside
i have nothing left to hide
don't want anymore time to bide
i feel as if my soul has died
i only find happiness in my family and that is fleeting
wishing that my heart would stop beating
can't do it because of my kids
no one could forgive me if i did
feeling as if lives would be happier without me around
so empty only darkness is found
within me i feel only pain
my life has gone down the drain
tried to pick up my head and move on
but that feeling is long gone
a feeling of dread is in the air
i wish i was dead and i don't care