All I Can Say is I Love You

I love you. That's all I can say because I just love you. I can't say I miss you because it hurts too much, I can't say I need you because it doesn't say enough. Can't say that the day you walked away, I died. So ill say I love you. I died when you left, you buried me alive under dirt, you took my breath you ripped out my heart the day you walked into my life and again the day you walked out. So all I think I shall say is I love you. If I said you meant so much to me,it wouldn't make a slightest different. Can never say please come back because you already left. Can't say I died, because the day I really do die I wonder if you'll see how much I love you. I guess people say and hear things they never did before when you really die. They say how great you were, they hear what you have always been saying. But I just wanna hear you say she loved you, because I really do. I want to hear you say that I was pregnant with your child until you killed it. I want you to hear my love for you because I know when I die, you will be the one to get all I ever loved, everything I wrote about my love to you. So no, I can't really say I miss you, can't say I died when you left, can't say how wonderful you are or how happy you made me, you wouldn't hear it anyway, so ill say I love you because one day you will hear that and hear the rest too.
Once I told you no matter what I would always love you, and do anything for you. Once you listened so please listen again because what I said will never change.
I love you, always.
One day you will open your eyes and see my love, hear my words, one day you will hear me crying my love out and maybe you'll even say it back. I'm okay with waiting till I am dead, ill stick around to make sure you are okay and make sure you are always happy because my love goes on past life and maybe ill finally hear those three words again and maybe you will care about me again...
Love you always and forever Christoffer David P.