When love knocks you down, Major is a living example that you must get back up. |
When love knocks you down, Major is a living example that you must get back up. Death, heartache, drama, and love gone wrong all tie into Major developing a heart condition called Mitral Valve Prolapse. Major gives an account of how her mother’s death triggered her heart to weaken and the love of men caused it to shatter. If you ever needed proof that love kills, Major’s life is a must read. Snippet CHAPTER 1 February 17th, 2009 “Ms. Love, are you feeling okay?” “Yea.” “Your heart is beating dangerously fast. We’re going to move you to a separate room in the ICU unit.” “Okay.” The smell of Clorox hit my nose. The bright hospital lights blinded my eyes. As the doctors filled the room and stared at me with amazement I lay there wondering what the big deal was. “Okay Ms. Love we’re going to try to slow your heart down. It should be beating around 80 times per minute; it’s up to 200. That’s extremely high.” As they injected me with the first shot of medicine my heart literally stopped. My chest tightened. My face grimaced. Fear ran through my body. I had to remain calm. 7 MAJOR “No changes. Do it again.” The second shot had the same effect, or lack thereof. My heart still raced rapidly. After the third dose they stopped. By that time I was given permission to invite my boyfriend into the room; who I instructed to call my family. As hours passed the doctors were confused as to what exactly was wrong with me. My heart began to slow down after numerous IV’s. Over 20 to be exact. My pee was clear. By midnight so many of my family members had come and gone bearing gifts and love, fear and confusion, desperation and anger. They all came and left with the same question, what is wrong with her? Through it all I never feared for my life until I saw the fear in my boyfriend’s eyes. As he grabbed my hand and begged me not to leave him I knew he was sincere. Tears filled my eyes. How could the same eyes that were so cold and enraged nearly 24 hours earlier be so needy and desperate? I knew then and there that I had to pull through. If not for me, for him. 8 LOVE KILLS LOVE SICK They say what doesn’t kill me defi nes me so I’m laying in the hospital blindly why shouldn’t I b I’m finally getting your attention all it took was 4 me 2 get sick a heart condition but look listen that aint the part that matters lets kiss an make up an cease all this chatter cause I know they gone call an u gone start running an my heart gone be drumming an my mind going numb an woah wait the machines going crazy my heart is broken bout 2 burst but your presence saves me but you the reason I’m n here an lately u been acting different I know its just a phase you hate 2 c me breathless an laying weak 4 days so why u keep lying why u keep cheating why u keep me crying its getting harder 2 breathe an I’m love sick how do I let it go whether you love me or you leave me its gone shatter my soul why cant u love me rite why cant u give me what I need why cant I accept that & just get the courage 2 leave how cud you break my heart an force me 2 pick up the pieces alone what’s the use its killing me anyway so y should i move on I’m love sick an i cant get well you my earthly heaven wit a side dish of hell I’m love sick you’re my cure you’re my disease so i guess I’ll just rest an wait 4 u 2 finish me To read more email ruthministries@ymail.com for purchase info. |