A man coming alive after watching the world go by and then losing everything |
Sitting in a cold dark room The loneliness start’s to kick in Deciding to kill the loneliness is hard. So you get up off the floor and turn on the light As you do the room start’s to shrink Until it’s so small you can’t move. End then rigomortus start’s to kick in You can’t move, you’re stuck in the same position Slowly you start to feel the pain. You realise you can’t feel your leg’s You look down and realise They aren’t flesh and bone anymore But a bright blood red and midnight black marble. All you can see is your blood pumping through your veins You scream as it slowly progresses up your body Inch by inch until its hit your chest You realise you can’t stop it and give up. It take’s over your body until the only thing u can move is your eye’s You try to think about what it could be And then you remember Serpentsempriar. The state of natural sleep in stone You remember reading a passage about it And try to remember what it say’s. All you can remember is that it lasts for millennia With this in mind you decide to sleep. There is nothing else that you can do And then you remember The meaning of Serpentsempriar. The meaning of a life of solitude. The body turns to stone but the organs keep working The state of natural sleep has come. It will last for millennia Unless kissed by one who can love u forever. This is the only way you can be awakened From the natural state of sleep. As you sleep the world changes And you have to stand and watch. You watch for 100,200 and then 300 years Until someone who sees your inner beauty arrives. She gives you the kiss of life and awakening Once awakened the sadness and solitude of 3 decades leaves you. As you realise how much you need the girl whose awakened you In the following years your relationship blooms. Until one day she breaks it to you She’s met someone else and is leaving you for him. Then the loneliness kicks in The loneliness turns to depression The depression turns to grief and regret. Until one day you decide if love has not been found in a month Then you will end it all. To be rid of the anger, sadness and depression The feelings left on your shoulders This in mind you slowly withdraw from society and life. Then one day in the not so distant future While walking down a street in the city centre You bump into a girl looking up into her eyes. You see the beauty hidden there inside this girl This girl you don’t know. You apologise and start thinking maybe I should ask her out And see if she can love me for whom and what I am. So you do and she agrees so you arrange a date When the day comes you start getting nervous what if this is a mistake Will you ever get over the pain of another rejection? But then you think why not throw caution to the winds So you go and meet her, you have a good time. You arrange to meet again, then again, then again You see each other for three months and you feel like you couldn’t be happier She’s relit the flame in your heart. Then things start to go wrong as she starts to withdraw from life. She won’t talk to anyone about it but you So you sit and she tells you what’s wrong and you listen She’s been thinking for a while about death Mainly about one aspect of death. Suicide. You sit and discuss it and decide you’ll both go together In two weeks on Midsummer Eve is when you decide to do it. So you can be together forever not only in life but also in death. The next day you go out of town on business And while you’re out there is an accident outside your apartment. Hearing that someone has died the girl goes to your apartment to check When she gets there and no one answers the door she assumes it was you So she rings the nearest hospital and they confirm her fear. She leaves and walks home ignoring everything and everyone When she gets home she decides to keep her promise but to do it sooner than planned. She goes into the cupboard and gets out a mixture of drugs and blades She walks into her bedroom and locks the door Then alone in darkness she starts dropping pills She drops nearly a hundred pills of different types And then starts cutting her wrists not across like most But up the veins for a quicker less painful death For no matter what happens she’s going to die What with the drugs in her system and her life pouring out of her There’s nothing to be done unless found in time. As it happens no one notices she’s missing for hours When they do they start looking for her A friend has a spare key to her house and goes there with some others They search the whole house after finding her door locked But having no success they decide to leave And then one of them notices There’s blood coming from under her door So in haste they break it down to find her lying in a pool of blood Beyond all help this world could offer They ring for an ambulance and try everything they can think off in the meantime When the ambulance arrives the paramedics do everything they can In the end they don’t manage to save her. Her friends who found her ring you and tell you what’s happened As it happens you’re on the train three stops from her block so you go straight over. Her friends tell you what’s happened and apologise for not realising sooner You listen without registering what their telling you Thinking about what you should do You decide to live your life to the fullest possible extent for her So you go home and get ready to go out You snort a few lines of coke and drop some pills And go to the nearest club and start drinking About half one you decide to leave and go home Walking home you pass a liqueur store so you go in You buy whiskey, vodka, bourbon and a whole mix of other spirits You then continue home downing each bottle as you go You get half way there and decide to sit down for a while While sitting down you start singing your song and crying A girl walks past and asks if you’re ok You tell her you lost the only reason you had to live And then abruptly get up and start walking again You get home and walk up to your apartment ignoring your neighbours You get into your apartment and start feeling alone in the world With that sadness runs through you The room starts to shrink until you can’t move No not again, you struggle but its no use You start turning into a statue from the legs up This time its pure white marble Your hearts still beating as the rest of your body submits A living statue till kissed by one who can love you Serpentsempriar has taken over again as it did once before so long ago So for millennia your standing watching the world pass by Until again someone kisses you and awakens you When you get back all movement you go to the nearest gun shop There you buy an handgun and wander off to a quiet place Where you load it and place it on your temple Then you remember your promise you made The promise to live for one you loved And so you live life. You’ll live until death comes for you or Serpentsempriar takes you But you will live. |