life as it is

Long past the glory of
A new beginning
And a number of newer ones
Once again on the path
Of loneliness and heartbreaks
Is this all about life
Or is this all of me
Thankless, heartless life
Or a dreary woeful me
Gone again is
The feeling of fun and gaiety
Does this mean anything?
To anyone but me
The loneliest of days
Expectations so high
But the outcomes
So depressing
No matter how much
It’s only the past that
Remembers, never the present
Tears and joys, heartfelt
Only by the blood
Never by the bonds
And answers so distant
It breaks my heart