You look so silent?

It went so well last time, the desire is gone
When earlier I followed him home alone
And he closed up his hand, and my nerves to a fray
I didn't mean to play ghost, but he chased me away

What a childish game
We both burn out the same way
But if it all comes right
He won't throw me away

He told me, my love, you don't try hard enough
But I'm broken by him, and wandering lost
While I stumble in dusk, he bathes in my warmth
He owns all my light now, I have nothing left

As he looks at me tenderly, curled on my bed
He shouldn't be concerned, I'm so easilly led
"Oh the flower, the sunshine you are"
Can't he taste sorrow on my lips anymore?

With his mind ever-changing, the fullness of youth
He swept me all up, his roses a noose
The sudden change of his impulsive heart
In one breathless swoop, it was over so fast

Carefree, I braved the shady old woods
Hoping his madness was an illusion at most
"Oh the sunshine, the light in your eyes"
But the wick has burned down, the wisdom here dies

My mother just shakes her head
The ruined woman she birthed and raised
I have walked in the footsteps she led
Naive as childhood, defiant and ablaze

"Oh, honey, you look so lost"
But he kisses my eyes, and he turns out the lock
And as I've grown, boys are cruel, but good men are not
Some shattered me down, where some built me up

He encircles my thin hands with his ring on my finger
But I tremble where I stand and the scent of him lingers
For the sake of his peace I will seal my mouth shut
And if I never speak again he will still stay in love

In his absence I still taste his shirt and his hands
That gently ward off the panic and tears
The toll and the timbre of his dark voice
Will lull me to sleep, help me live with my choices

"You look like you've seen a ghost,
Why do you look so quiet?"
I have watched my love die
And it killed me with fright