Our Moment of Shame

I met you at church and you seemed to be so shy,
With the family that you came from I couldn't imagine why,
I had to pursue and ask you your name,
I didn't think that this day would start our moment of shame.

You fell for me quickly and loved me so,
I thought that I could never let you go,
You made me love you back without any hesitation or fear,
I didn't think that we would have a dreadful year.

The fists of love soon came after,
Bruising my ribs and shattering my laughter,
I hid in the suffering shadows of pain,
I didn't think that from the moment I met you it would start our moment of shame.

You constantly pressure me about losing my virginity,
You even go so far as to proposing in front of your family,
When I finally cave in to your wishes and conform to your will,
I didn't think that my own fate would be sealed.

The spit from your mouth landing on my face,
The different women that call my phone and my privacy they invade,
The blows to my stomach, arms, and legs how inhumane,
I didn't think that this would start our moment of shame.

Your hands creep over the mattress that I lay tired in,
And start to roam like a GPS with someone trying to find their destination,
You snatch off my panties and thrust my legs open,
I didn't think for one moment that this was the path that was chosen.

I have to get out of here,
Somebody help me please,
How could you hurt someone that you are supposed to be loving?
I didn't think, I didn't think, I didn't think.....

It's because I didn't think, I got pregnant and miscarried it,
It's because I didn't think, the relationship that I have with my mother is ruined,
It's because I didn't think, I am lost and don't have a dime to my name,
It's because I didn't think, it started my moment of shame.