Pain Please Be Gone!

Why do I hurt so much I'm tired of feeling this pain.
What can I do to release you your causing so much rage.
I'm angry I'm angry so much frustration.
Sometimes I wish life with me was just a dream.
Where I  could be erased from those memories.
Better yet put me in a dream of fairy tales where I am happy.
Because right now I just want to be barried.
I'm hurting I'm showing my pain with my actions.
Someone please help me I know you hear me.
I scream I yell! but there is no one listing.
I see heads turning from me like their visualizing me gone.
No one helps no one helps just leave me hear I cry.
Don't need anyone just let me stay here and die.
maybe I'll do something crazy and finally you hear me.
Wait! I can't I can't I can't I cry out loud.
Their are people here counting on me the most.
My kids their so innocent and so adorable.
I can't leave them here not without me.
They want me to see them grow.
They are depending on me to help them grow.
They are depending on my affection my love.
I got to change I need to find away.
I'm down on my knees asking God please.
Take this pain please make it go away.
I want to be happy I want to enjoy life.
And better yet show the ones who loves me I can be happy.
Please please please someone help me.