Fear and the Body

Fear and the Body
By Dominique

Lost in desperation, hopeless I feel as though I am going down.
I wake up with the fear
It is hard to breathe.
My chest hurts,
Cannot catch my breath. 
Running my hands through my hair
I am nervous and scared.
Thoughts racing, what to do, what to do.
My skin prickles with cold sweat,
I want to hide, but the fear  finds me where ever I go.
Walking always made me feel better so I get out of bed
My stomach tightens my muscles knot
The blood races through my ears I can hear my pulse
My heart hammering away in my chest.
Can’t walk any longer my legs are too heavy
Dragging my feet I am swaying back and forth, about to fall
I catch the wall with my shoulder, and the pain radiates through out my chest.
Can’t focus, my eyes water
I pause 
Wave after wave of heat flushes my face and neck
My throat hurts and burns.
It is hard to swallow I choke, I sputter, I cough.
A wave of nausea grips I clasp my hand to my mouth.
Suddenly dizzy, my head is spinning.
I slide down the wall into sitting.
I cannot get a grip.
My hands are shaking
The fear hits me again and my heart is racing out of control,
I still cannot catch my breath.
Cramp in my side I double over.
I think I am going to be sick.