The Beginning of Anger

The beginning of Anger
Source of my Rage
Boy vs Man
Has little chance
To stop it from happening
Doesn't know what to do
Afraid
Terrified

After the night is over
He is changed forever
Angry and upset
He distrusts everyone
Thinks it's his fault

That it made him gay
Gets angrier still
No end to the rage
The loss of control
Of safety
Cannot be erased
Can't be forgotten

No matter how much i push it away
The source of my rage
To be abused this way
To this very day
It destroys my soul

I hated him so
This man that did this
I hated myself
Was mad at everyone
I couldn't handle it
Anger kept coming
Beyond my control

A happy kid til then
But after sad indeed
The point in my life
When everything changed
A happy kid no more

Angry and confused
Now and since
It's no one's fault
I couldn't comprehend
I was too young
To know what to do

How to handle being molested
By someone trusted, until then
From that point forward
Life wasn't the same

I was so fucking mad
The anger seethed and burst forth
Over nothing at all
Anger, Rage,
Blinding pain and sorrow

Deep sadness within me
A little boy no more
Adult life had found me
I was ten years old