Beautiful dreams

Sleep does not come very often
My dreams are normally forgotten
And all that I will ever see
Is all the glorious memory
Of me

I once was proud, happy and free
Roaming the world that you now see
A beautiful land with no dark, only good
This landscape of dreams laid before me

And then one day I crossed the line
Between heaven's sweet bliss and purity divine
Into a land both cold and sour
Never to see the light of day, only to cower

I wished for death, for all of it to end
For my soul to evaporate and then condensed
Into the land of the true happiness
So I may go and be in true bliss

But the feeling grew greater still
And it would be wrong I knew, but hell
I did not care and would not be stopped
By the likes of God and his angels, I dropped

Into the caverns deep below,
I brought up the demons from their homes
In the land of insanity my mind now lay
And now I wish I had never lived that day

For I brought them deep from under the ground
Into my very own home, into my town
Pushed them into my body, my mind and my soul
Tainted on the inside, my spirit grows cold

And the fond memories of the bright summer sun
That air that I breathed fills my lungs
This world feels like the only true one
But when I awake, the damage redone

My spirits drop low, down into the deep
Where I once woke those demons from their sleep
To achieve some dark purpose, to add some way
To feel the pain each and every day

So now I lay me down to sleep
I do not pray the lord for my soul to keep
For if I die before I wake
I want to pay for my mistake

And drop with them back down below
And to go to my true home
Where I will always lay awake in agony
My mind will be in pure insanity

So for now, I lay here and sleep
Not to dream of those caverns deep
But to dream of the castles and beautiful world
That God and his angles have taken

And to dream of the days when I could still have fun
Before my life is surely done
I hope to see that place so sweet as cream
But for now, here I sleep
And dream