Hey

"Hey"

"Hey"

He nods in acknowledgement, grins, and walks away. I just caught myself staring at him for a second longer than I should, but it's no big deal, he just looks nice today is all. Turning back to the conversation, we were just talking about him, a pang of jealousy hits when one of my friends talks about hanging out with him over the weekend. But its fine, I just wish that I was doing something this weekend. I've known him for years, I can't like him, he's one of my best friends, it would be awkward. I just won't think about it or let it bother me. I just won't think about him is all.

I try to not think about him, but right when I stop he walks by and my stomach gets knots in it and I start to blush. Then my friend says that I like him and I deny it and then I know. Because I know what a lie feels like. I like one of my best friends. It's great! He's an amazing guy, smart, funny, and sweet. It's great...its... wait this is terrible! Two of my best friends like him too. I wonder how they'll feel. Betrayed, hurt, and upset probably. They've liked him for four years.

Two of my best friends. Why did I have to fall for him? I know that guys come and guys go but friends are forever. And I love them to death, but sometimes I'd rather have the guy. My friends are amazing. They're smart, funny, have great personalities and are so pretty. Whereas I'm more of the smart, but has no common sense, funny, slow on the uptake, and personality, well its decent I guess, but I'm not pretty. Decent looking I guess, but compared to my friends, I'm the friendly one in my group of friends for a nice way to put it. I don't stand a chance with him.

I always have to like the guys who are unattainable. The guys who people just throw themselves at. I wish someone like him liked me, but that's never going to happen. He could have anyone he wouldn't chose me.

But what if he did? No, that would never happen. I wish he'd just make it obvious if he liked me or not. If he did, we'd hang out more outside of school, but if he didn't he wouldn't flirt with me. Or would he. I don't know, I'm so confused. I know that I'll regret it forever, but I can't betray my best friends. I guess I'll just chose a broken heart.