How I'm Going to Lie About It

Dear Reader,

         Disappointment has been the sovereign of my day. But whenever I would feel down, upset, or lonely, I would remember how he made me feel the day before, the day that he made me feel wanted and cared for. It was just a simple touch reader, but he has never done this to me before. It was as though he extended his arm for me to purposely grab hold of his hand. As I held his hand, a burst of confusion had began, and my initial thought of, “This is beautiful,” had turned into “This is not right,” and I immediately made fun of the moment. I grabbed the hand that elated me, and swung it around like a maniac, to perplex not only the mind of my best friend, who had gone through the moment inconspicuously, but my own. As I tried to confuse myself in a split second, I had not thought of the consequence of possibly over thinking that one perplexing moment.
         What am I to do reader? Should I go on feeling this way? Or should I just let it go?