Confessions

I hurt myself

  to forget you



I despaired in my being

  to erase your memory



I sat in the darkest corners of my soul

    and watched the shadows

      of light flit carelessly through

          the holes



I buried my emotions

  to forget the pain



I sank to the depths of despair

    to erase the shame

        the shame of loving

          loving in silence



I cradled my heart

  its cracks protecting

              preventing the sheer fall

        from hand to floor



I shackled my tears

                              and ceased to exist

  while fighting to restore my ground



I gave myself

    to feel again

and lost myself instead.



I shut down my emotions

      on the ride to destruction

and awoke to the danger in sight



I inhaled

          exhaled

    blinked

          twice

and stepped off the one way track to hell

...

...

...

I bear the scars

      that tell the tale



I hold the memories

                            that soon will fade...


by Jamaicanspice