What If

Last night I was up for awhile,
Thinking of all those who are now gone
Dead or missing, either way
Their lives will never be the same.

I looked on my phone
To see some suicide notes online.
Just wondering what they put
and while reading those,
It made me realize something.

Even though they were down in the dumps,
Even worse then I am,
They could of gotten out of it,
If maybe they told someone..

Too bad life is full of What Ifs
For example, what if I didn't OD on pain killers a couple of years ago?
What if I didn't meet my amazing wonderful friends?
What if I fail this test?
Too bad we can't figure out the other possibilities.

Maybe that's supposed to mean something?
Live with no regrets?
Don't ponder on the past?
What if we were to find out the meaning?