Strangled

Trapped and alone inside this helpless body. I feel tempted to end it, but i can't. I am afraid of myself and afraid of what i can do to stop this. I am not in the right state of mind. My thoughts are blurring and i can't keep control. I want to relieve this agonizing pain. Everything is paralyzed in my vision. I hate everything that brings me down. I give up when something gets hard. I wish i was normal. Strangled and struck by words and unspoken language. I am done with this, and everyone. I can't keep going on like this. I need help but i dont know how to get it. I am stuck in this deep dark hole that i will never get out of. I am strewn everywhere. My heart and soul is lost.