Isolatedology

I feel isolated
in a sea of people that
chatter endlessly
and have special bonds with each other.
Me?
I am too afraid.
I am afraid of rejection,
afraid I will not fit in
to their worlds.
"Hello," I say.
and they stare with blank faces.
They see me as cold, distant even,
and yet I am so insecure,
so lost within my own feelings,
my own little world I've created in my mind.
I dwelve deeper into my world
They don't understand me, I think.
I'm just a muse, an air of nothingness it seems.
There are probably fewer than a handful of people
I can truly feel like I can
set myself free and be open with.
Why must I feel unnormal...